I am so sorry that this post is coming so incredibly late, though I have been working my ass off, and don’t have the time to do much of anything anymore. That being said, I think my busy schedule is a good place to start a discussion on normative conceptions of time as introduced in the Judith Halberstam reading.
My life is ruled by a notion of time that stems from a place unfamiliar to me. I can honestly say that my time can be divided into three separate categories: work, school, and sleep. I work retail to pay for school (amongst other things), go to school to (hopefully) get a decent job after graduation, and sleep to replenish the former activities. I work and attend school to ensure the survival of myself and my future progeny, so that they will one day do the same for themselves and their own. For generations after I die, my life will have ensured that others will live after me, all repeating and replenishing the cycle of capitalism and consumerism that comes with it. This shall be my legacy.
While Halberstam argues that there are other ways of being, that queer time does exist (a fact I do not deny), it is so hard to separate myself from a world that I am so deeply meshed in, albeit as a minor screw in the grand scheme of things. Though I can choose alternative ways of living by rejecting normative conceptions of time, or capitalist time, or whatever you may call it, I still cannot escape the structures of time that have been laid out around me. I can recognize and analyze the notions of time and space that encompass every aspect of my being, but can I survive without them? Can I eat if I don’t have the money to pay for food? Will I have money if I don’t work? Will I have a good job if I don’t go to school? In some way or another, I am always interacting with normative conceptions of time and apce, with little choice of doing otherwise otherwise.
Queer time is an interesting concept that can help people understand and analyze society and the self, but can it actually exist given that people who possibly live in it have to (in some way) take part and take place in normal time.
Sometimes I feel like I’m really getting somewhere……